Are you happy with your current job?
Do you want to live in the city your in?
All of these questions have come up in the last week and it has sent me into a spiral of "trying to figure my life out". If you've been following this blog, you know that this happens once or twice a year to me and causes a bit of stress.
My answers to these questions are, in order, "I don't know. Single?", "No", and "Not really, but I can manage here". All of these answers indicate that I need to have some sort of life change.
I'd like to be my own boss since I haven't made it as a writer. I have a fantastic collection of business ideas, but I don't know if I want to do them here in Fairbanks, AK. Despite a growing rockabilly community, I don't know if rockabilly clothing store (just one of many ideas) would do well here. On top of that, I haven't really found any locations for a shop that I like. They're all a little out of the way or have some other issues (bad neighborhood, no parking, hard to get to, etc).
My current job is cushy. I live right above my office. I get to have the dogs around me all the time. It's not a difficult job - in fact, it can be a little slow and boring. I can spend my free time working on my own projects - between work projects. I have insurance.
I have no idea where I want to live. I have two labrador retrievers. I prefer the cooler climate of the PacNW (and similar regions), but also Hawaii. I don't think I want to move to a big city with two big dogs. For their sake, and my own sanity, I think a smaller community would be preferable - somewhere near some water. I moved to Portland a few years ago for about 14/15 months before my parents talked me into coming back to Alaska. I didn't have a great job, I didn't have dogs or friends, but I was on my own.
Maybe I should start with a vacation. I have almost two full months of vacation time saved up - I think I'm short by a few days, unless my sick days cover those few days because I'm almost never out sick....hmm.....yeah, I suppose it's a solid 2 months. That means no vacations in the last 4 years.
I don't even know where to start with figuring out my future. HELP! Suggestions?
Skills. I guess I should figure out what skills I have and apply for fitting jobs, right? Do I have skills? Applicable skills? I feel like I have lame skills that don't work for jobs. I can make my own sewing patterns, that's a skill. I cook and bake. I have the basic office manger skills (typing, using the printer/copier/scanner without beating on it, using Office suite, PDF creating/editing, answering phones, etc). I'm pretty strong. I can play bass guitar. I'm pretty good at writing and editing written work. I have research skills and I can draw stuff. At one point I was a museum intern for 14-months, so I have some tour guide and curating skills from that. I can make a damn fine cup of coffee. I have general craft skills (like arts and crafts). I do a lot of conceptual design and business ideas - these just get tucked away in my apartment. I'm not super sporty, but I have some skills in taekwondo, boxing, fencing, baseball, and weightlifting. I have organizational skills - I literally put together a pin up pageant for a car show. I'm good with time management. Publishing skills - I had my own quarterly paper for a year. I have an art degree and a history degree, so I have those kind of skills as well.
....so...what kind of job does that land me? Why do I feel like my skills will only land me jobs like waitress or barista or receptionist or something like that? I know the answer is low self-value.